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“If your boyfriend comes back he’s gonna kick my ass.” “Stop worrying,”
she cooed before sucking on the sophomore’s lower lip. It was thick and slightly chapped from alley-way kisses. She
briefly considered stopping at the CVS to buy him some Chap Stick. He laughed and nudged her away. “I’m serious,
babe,” he smirked at her. She batted her lashes, her icy eyes fluttering in and out of sight. Her lips were smeared
with a deep red lipstick, her own seal of approval. She was the biggest tease on the east coast. His lips were blushing. He
slid his hands down to her waist; a studded belt at the top of her low-rise hindered the movement but didn’t stop it.
He noticed a bruise starting to show through the powder under her left eye and some more in the form of fingerprints on her
arms but he knew better than to say anything about them. She let her dark hair fall in front of her face before brushing it
away coyly. It was long and itched at her bare shoulders, causing her to shiver. Her black tank top rolled above her pierced
belly button but she fixed it absently. “He may not be bigger than me but he’s in your grade. Soon I’m gonna
have a gang of juniors coming after me. You wouldn’t want that, would you?” He planted a small kiss on her forehead,
trying to send her away. “Maybe I would, maybe
I wouldn’t.” His dark eyes were afraid, she suddenly felt bad for using him. Guilt
passes. She pressed him up beside the wall, shoving her lips against his. He tried to push her hips away from him but
she tasted like vanilla. *
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* “Have you seen her?”
he said in a gruff voice. He was in a hurry, horny and not in the mood for games. He clenched and unclenched his fists as
he waited for the delayed reply. His spiked hair stood on end like bleached fur on the back of an angry cat. “Her who?”
his friend asked, not taking his glazed eyes away from his newly purchased Superman
comic; the colors were dancing even though he could barely make them out. His curly brown hair fell into his eyes again, but
he didn’t lift his hand to move it. His grey t-shirt failed to cover his boxers which were hanging out of his jeans.
He thought about pulling his pants up but decided against it. If he let go of the page, “Your mom. My girlfriend,
ass,” he spat. His eyes were brown but seemed darker; he was angry. His girlfriend was a flirt and he hated when she
was out of his sight for even a second. She ditched him earlier that night when he had stopped to take a leak. He had been
pissing in the bushes at “What the fuck, dude?”
the blazer asked, dropping his comic to the sidewalk. A woman all dolled up for a late dinner kicked it as she walked past
without noticing it. She’d break her stiletto over a man’s head to keep him from raping her later that night,
but she didn’t know that yet either. His beat up wallet fell out of his pocket, spilling his license, cash and condoms
everywhere. “I asked you a fucking
question, so give me a fucking answer!” “Chill out! Last time I checked she was two blocks over at the diner. God, give me a fucking heart attack, why
don’t you?” He picked his comic up and brushed the dirt off of She had complimented his
muscles and the fact that he didn’t use them. He called himself a lover,
not a fighter, and she laughed for hours. She actually smiled for the full two days that he slept there. She didn’t
smile now. *
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* “So what are you
going to do if your boyfriend does show up, huh?” “Red Bank’s
pretty big, Hun, I don’t think he’s gonna find me before I want him to.” Why wouldn’t he just shut
up and let her kiss him? Why did he have to make her think about what she’d have to go through later? She tried to erase
her boyfriend’s face from her mind. It was hard to do; he’d made a shrine to himself in her locker. She pulled
on the front of the sophomore’s shirt to draw his lips to hers. He wasn’t much taller than her but enough to make
being the dominant female difficult. “But what if he does?” he insisted, pulling himself away. He was really starting to get on her
nerves. She had picked a whiny little sophomore this time, but she had had no choice; everyone else was either her boyfriend’s
goon or at the football game. She was lucky enough that her boyfriend hadn’t found out about her past exploits with his best friends yet. The lights from the diner behind her lit up his face; he looked paler
than usual. Somewhere a siren sounded. It was curfew. He unwound her arms from
his neck and held her hands in front of him. He didn’t like being yelled at, but he didn’t like biting the curb
either. No one said no to her. “It’s curfew,
I have to get home.” He kissed the top of each hand and let her go. “You’re kidding,”
she nearly laughed, but she was too angry to laugh. He was saying no. “You really are a prude, aren’t you?”
She was in disbelief. She’d been playing the gambler since freshman year; risk was her middle name and she loved it.
The one thing she risked every day was her neck, though she was more afraid of leaving her boyfriend than of staying with
him. “Well if you really don’t want to get picked up by the cops, we can go back to my place. My parents won’t
be home for hours,” she smiled, trying to pull him back in. She wanted him; then again she always wanted everyone. She
kissed him again but he pushed her away more forcefully. She didn’t like forceful, but his hands were soft; he was just
a little boy pretending to be a man. “Babe, I really don’t
feel like taking a trip to Riverview, tonight. If your boyfriend finds out I slept with you, let alone kissed you…”
She felt guilty again. He was gentle; the bruises on her body would never come from him. She was pale and knew that they glowed
through the cover-up. He ran a hand through his short dark hair. His white polo contrasted sharply with it. She realized her
moment of weakness and dismissed her feelings yet again; she went for the kill. “Yeah, yeah, yeah,
you’ve given me this whole song and dance, will you stop worrying? Here, I’ll make you a deal. If we get some
kind of sign in the next minute, if something happens, I don’t care what it is, something, then you can go home. If
not, you come home with me,” she smiled a small smile, lips slightly parted; she was teasing him. She let him go and
stepped back, staring into his deep, dark, scared, child eyes. She loved corrupting the younger ones. Silence. She smiled triumphantly.
Suddenly, a scream pierced the night. “Stop it! Stop!” Her smile faded but it wasn’t in concern for the
damsel in distress, it was because she knew that she wouldn’t get any ass from him in the next twenty or so minutes.
She pouted her trademark pout again, arms crossed, and walked away. Her black ankle-breakers kicked pebbles that seemed to
flee from her disappointment. He breathed a long sigh, he was safe for now, but no one was safe after meeting her. He started
to walk out of town when he heard a pair of heavy boots clunking awkwardly against the pavement. With his lips covered in
blood red, he knew that his last kiss of the night would be to the curb. *
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* “Hey,” she
said quietly, arms wrapped tightly around her stomach to hold back the nauseating feeling of rejection. He looked up from
his comic book. “Hey. You’re
boyfriend was looking for you.” He nodded his head and she sat down next to him. “Did you get with that guy?” “No. Chicken,”
she offered as her only words of explanation. She pinched her lips tightly together to try to stop the ache in the back of
her throat. “Yeah, he looked
like it.” His high was wearing off; he’d gotten to the end of the comic and tossed it. The two of them never had
to say much. He looked at her arms and saw the most recent result of his buddy’s temper. His face grew hot, his throat
burned and his muscles tensed. He reached out and took her arm into his lap, rubbing the discolored marks softly. His hands
were rougher than the sophomores; he used to fight all of the time. She was afraid that he was going to be kicked out of school
after his third suspension and told him so. He kept his temper but he stopped fighting. She cleared her throat. “Walk
me home?” He nodded and they headed out of town as a lone police siren pierced the silence of the night. Its lights
flashed in the girlfriend’s clouded eyes, on the blazer’s hand as he took hers in his. Its lights flashed on the
boyfriend’s blood stained shirt, on the sophomore’s blank stare. Its lights flashed through the empty streets
of Red Bank; everyone was at the football game.
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